... Got the string around my finger ... what a world ... what a life ... I'm in love ...

Well, not really. ... I'm not in love hehe ... But I do love that song.

Ya see ... I have a think for old stuff ... Old songs, old movies, old clothes ... I love it all .. Any time frame, really, but my favorite ... is Italian ... Like ... That's what I think of when I think of my most "romantic" setting ... it's deep, dark reds and browns and blacks ... with Dean Martin singing in the background ... And having a deep conversation with a guy ... You know ... That's my PERFECT romantic setting ... It's VERY like ... I wouldn't say Breakfast at Tiffany's, even though I do love that movie ... I'd say more ... Casablanca ... But in color. ... Or old Italian Lounge Rat Pack stuff ... Ohhh I LOVE that ... That whole Era is sooooo beautiful to me. ... And I love Italian accents ... *sighs*

I'm so Italian it's not even funny haha ... Even though only a quarter of me is Italian (the rest is Cajun ... 1/2 French Cajun, 1/4 Spanish Cajun) ... I still think I connect with the Italian side more on that level. (Not saying I don't love Cajun accents ... cause to me, there's almost nothing sexier ... is that weird? Haha ...)

Anyway, I don't know why I decided to tell you about that ... I just felt like it hehe ... So deal with it!

Just kidding I love you all!

Have you ever had something happen ... that made you realize something about yourself ... that you have been told your whole life is wrong? ... That you shouldn't be that way ... because it's not "right"?

So, morally, you're wrong. ... or ... well, what you've been told your whole life was "moral" ... is not true for you ... does that make you ... immoral? ... If so ... What happens to you? ... Aren't they supposed to burn you on a stick or something? ... Nope. ... Hasn't happened yet. ...

Am I making any sense?

... I was told today I'm neurotic. ... That's not at all what I'm talking about in the paragraphs above (yeah I just changed subjects ... Deal with it.) ... And it was my BEST FRIEND who told me that. ... And you know ... I think she's completely right. ... I think in a way, that's why I have this dark side to me ... I understand it ... even though, on the surface .. I'm completely girly and bubbly ... but underneath it all, there's a deep dark side that thinks I really am insane ...

I mean ... if enough people tell you that, you start to believe it yourself, you know?

I think ... when I get really old ... they're not going to put me in an old folks home ... they're going to put me in a mental institution. ... 'Cause my head is so full of thoughts ... and I still haven't found a way to completely express myself ... so I think ... my thoughts are going to be the thing that takes over ... and I won't find an outlet to express myself to the world.

*Sighs* OK ... I'm going to stop ... before I reveal everything ... Plus, my head hurts. ... I'm trying to focus on this ... And House ... and my brother just cooked food ... and I'm hungry ... so I'm going to go eat.

Sorry if you can't understand all this ... It's just the way I think .......

So, I decided to just put up some features ... I got the idea from the last blog I posted and the features in them. ... I took the names of bands and put them into search and decided to see what I'd come up with. ... Here are some.

Sublime


Flyleaf


Seether


Automatic Loveletter (I've always loved the first one)


Tool


Paramore


Blue October


Hinder


Killswitch Engage


A Perfect Circle


No features today. ... I'm PMSing and crampy ... So the blog will have to do for the features

Because I'd rather that one not be on my page. ... So I'm gonna show some features yay! (look down) (well ... I was doing features ... until the browse thing stopped working ... I'll do it later)

OK ... I'm not going to say much because I don't want any of this to be used against me if this ever gets discovered by certain people ... So I'm going to keep this short. ... But I have to vent a little.

So, There's this girl that I used to work with. ... To put a long story short, I hate her. ... I kinda I guess dated a guy when I first got back to Texas ... and he kinda played us ... and things used to hurt a lot ... but now me and him are really good friends and him and her are still friends. ... She used to text me and call me and say stuff to me to try to get me jealous and she just knows what she wants and she will do ANYTHING to get it.

Well anyway, The last few months things have been much better. ... Me and him are great as friends and I haven't heard from or about her. ... Well, the other day, she tried to add my best friend on myspace. ... My friend, being the nosy person that she is (and because she's concerned and doesn't want me to get hurt again) went and looked at her profile. ... She had all this stuff about him and her on there. ... It just really pisses me off because last time this girl talked to my friend, my friend was cussing her out and told her to stop and leave me alone. ... They have never ... NEVER been friends. ... So the only reason she would do that would be because she knows that my friend would tell me about it.

I guess I just don't understand why you would WANT to try to start drama like that. ... I hate drama SO much and I always get stuck in the middle of it. I have never tried to contact the girl. I never talk about her. I would much rather just never hear from her. ... Ever. Why would she try to start shit again?

Ugh this is bullshit.